Title: And If Thou Wilt, Remember.

Author: Terri

Rating: PG

Disclaimer: Doctor Who and all recognizable characters do not belong to me and the title for the story is from “Song” by Christina Rossetti and so does not belong to me either.

Spoilers: Series 4

Series: Doctor Who, series 4

Summary: “Her life is so empty now, void of anything but sadness; an all encompassing hopelessness that shrouds her days in blackness.”

Wow, it's been an awfully long time.  There is a longer post coming, which is my yearly update, but for right now here's a piece of Doctor Who fanfiction I wrote a while back and have decided to post.  I've never written for Dr Who before, but I absolutely adored Donna and the Doctor together in Series 4 and was completely heart-broken when they parted ways at the end.  Every time I watch the scene in the TARDIS where Donna realises that she can no longer stay with th Doctor I literally sob.  So I gave writing a Dr Who fic a stab and this is what I came up with.  It's split into 2 posts as the story is too long apparently and it isn't beta'd so any mistakes are mine.

Title: And If Thou Wilt, Remember.

Author: Terri

Rating: PG

Disclaimer: Doctor Who and all recognizable characters do not belong to me and the title for the story is from “Song” by Christina Rossetti and so does not belong to me either.

Spoilers: Series 4

Series: Doctor Who, series 4

Summary: “Her life is so empty now, void of anything but sadness; an all encompassing hopelessness that shrouds her days in blackness.”

I finally saw The Dark Knight last night; a film I have been eagerly awaiting for months now.  I find myself wanting to get down my thoughts on the film, on Christian Bale and, mostly, on Heath Ledger.  Then came the thought that I haven't written anything of substance or meaning for a while and that there's been no update on my graduation or anything else.  So I decided to do a post in which everything of importance is included.  It's going to be long and so here's the LJ cut.

It's been a while since my last entry.  There's not really been much for me to say I guess.  Now though, I come with the excitement of exams nearly being over and my Uni life being complete.  By 3.30pm on Thursday I will have sat my last exam!  I am so excited by this prospect that I am being driven to distraction by it.  I have become incredibly bored of University, of essays and exams.  I need to be doing a job, working, being productive.

Ooooooooo I cannot wait for Thursday.  Though once I have my Criminal Law exam out of the way tomorrow I will feel much better about myself.  Law is the only exam that I am not looking forward to at all.  It's all so complicated in the way that it's worded and the answers expected of you.  I'd much rather be sitting my Gender and Violence exam (which is Thursday) or resitting my Key Issues in Clinical Criminology one that I sat today.  The Law exam lasts for only two hours though.  Two hours and then it's over.  I have last minute revision to do tonight and tomorrow morning (though admittedly most of it was revision I just started tonight) and then I no longer have to look or think about criminal law again in such a way.  It might be a part of my job in the future, but not like this. 

I'm gonna get back to the revision before I lose all motivation after realising it is nearly 11pm.  I shall be back on here more often to ramble about inane things and to maybe write something (which I haven't felt like doing in a long time - Uni work has drained me of any creativity I might of possessed).

Since Heath's death, I've been trying to find a song (or quote) to help me sum up how I feel about Heath's life and death.  I've watched as others have posted their songs and have been touched by them all.  Music comforts me and I like to lose myself in song sometimes, so it's been hard not having one which reminds me of Heath.

Last night I put my Ipod on shuffle and came upon this.  Incidentally, it's one of my favourite tracks from the album and I don't know why I didn't think of it earlier.  Anyway, I've posted this in inmemoryofheath, but I wanted it here too.

I hope you enjoy and that it brings a small smile to your face; as it did to mine.

"Exitlude" - The Killers; Sam's Town Album.

Aggressively, we all defend the role we play,
Regrettably, time's come to send you on your way.
We've seen it all; bonfires of trust, flash floods of pain

It doesn't really matter, don't you worry, it'll all work out,
No, it doesn't even matter, don't you worry,
That ain't what it's all about.

We hope you enjoy you're stay,
It's good to have you with us, even if it's just for the day.
We hope you enjoy you're stay,
Outside the sun is shining, seems like Heaven ain't far away.
It's good to have you with us, even if it's just for the day.

It's good to have you with us, even if it's just for the day,
Outside the sun is shining, seems like Heaven ain't far away.
It's good to have you with us, even if it's just for the day,
Outside the sun is shining, seems like Heaven ain't far away,
Seems like Heaven ain't far away.


Thank you for all that you gave us, Heath.

Heath Ledger's cause of death has been released today as being an accidental overdose.

It's been over a week since Heath Ledger passed and it's still as unbelievable as the day it happened.

At 3.26pm (New York time), 28 year old Heath Ledger was found dead in his Manhatten apartment. NYPD suspect a drugs overdose, though nothing has been confirmed.  An autopsy is scheduled for Weds 23rd.

My heart broke when I heard the news.  My brain still can't quite comprehend the fact that Heath Ledger is dead, I'm waiting for the news to say they've made some terrible mistake, or for someone to wake me up.  It all seems so unreal.  Literally minutes before being told of his death (in a text I didn't believe) I was watching the trailer for The Dark Knight; the Batman Begins sequel in which Ledger plays the Joker.  A movie I've been anticipating since reading about it in Nov 2007, it now means so much more.  It will be the last role Heath Ledger ever depicts.

He was so young.  Heading for the peak of his career, with (I'm sure) much more good things to come for and from him.

My heart goes out to all those he left behind; his daughter and family. 

It's 2.32am and I am up, attempting to complete an essay on crime and prejudice.  How utterly boring.  God, it's times like these that I want to drop Uni (despite having something like 6 months left) and just go and get myself a job.

I'm therefore distracting myself with a quick post on here, while I attempt to get my thoughts in order and figure out what comes next in the essay. 

Hmmm....I really should stop leaving my essays until the night before.  It's not good for my health or grades I am sure.  But I am so unmotivated.  I'm officially sick and tired of learning.  Of always having to justify everything I write, of never really being allowed to have my own opinion on things.  Every single point I make in an essay has to be backed up in some way, any argument I make has to be counter argued, or supported with other people's arguments/findings.  Why is it that I can't simply say what I believe?

Technically, I can express my own opinion, but it's always shrouded in the opinions and findings of other academics and research papers, that it kind of gets lost in translation.

A wave of panic has just hit me and I am now rushing off while I have the fear induced motivation to finish my essay.  More posts to come on this, I feel.